That day, I went to a social gathering = party. There was someone I was supposed to teach how to cook since I promised them. We talked, I was happy without being aware of it, which is why I don't know for sure if I was at all. I forgot everything else. All that mattered was that moment with all those people in that room smiling and talking. That person convinced me to take them to my house so we could go to sleep in the same bed. It just happened, I didn't want it to happen. Then I spoke in tongues where it was funny to distract my mind and focus on how flacid I was. She grabbed it and stuck it in for me and it kept falling out I was so tired of this and tired of life.
When I fell asleep I dremt we had a baby. I was in love with it because it was in love with me. Absolutely positively. The mother walked out of the room, disaffected. This baby was my life now. Nothing else matters. Nothing ever did.
